We're going away for the weekend (courtesy of a wonderful family friend, many thanks). We're driving up to Vail this afternoon and staying through Sunday. We're escaping - Mike, me and Tomo. We're not sure what we're going to do up there but we wanted to hike and I wanted to try to get Mike to do yoga with me. (He's not so bendy, so I thought it would be good for him.)
A weekend away with our little family I think will be nice, considering the up hill journey in front of us. It's the last weekend we have before surgery and recovery ... which will most likely roll into chemo. By time chemo is finished, and before my hair is most likely on its way back - most of the year will have passed and we'll be into the holidays. Jessie (not on Halloween) and Erin will have had their babies, Mitchell will be around the corner to 2 years old, Rhonde will turn 5, Ella will be a few months away from turning 1 - Kim and Mike's nephew will share their birthdays, My sister and mom will have their birthdays, as will the Baileys (just before the baby comes) ... somewhere in there I will (hopefully) have had my final surgery to swap out the expanders for the permanent implants ... summer will have passed, and most of the trees will have likely dropped their leaves. The first snow will most likely fall on Halloween and then not again for a few weeks. Tomo will turn 4 and time will just keep ticking away.
Things, people's lives - all will continue moving forward, and it feels like I will be stuck - stationary - still in the "treatment and recovery process" ... for a year, at the least. Yes, I'll be moving forward in my process, but I will still be in the process. On my way, but not there yet. Not turning a corner or entering a new experience - I will be in the same experience. So there's a pause button, but not a fast forward button, on life. Inconvenient.
But what's a year or two in my life on pause? That's shorter than the lease on my car. It's a blink of life's eye.
Being that it is the last weekend we have before surgery - that means it's the last weekend we have with my "girls." I told Mike we're bringing the camera.